Yesterday (A Beatles Rewrite) (Lyrics)

Yesterday, all my homework seemed so far away

But now it looks as though it’s due today

oh I wish it was yesterday

Suddenly, I don’t feel half as smart as I used to be

there’s a shadow hanging over me

oh today came suddenly

Why it was due now

I don’t know

it wouldn’t say

I left something home

Now I long for yesterdayayayayay

Yesterday, all my homework seemed so far away

But now it looks as though it’s due today

oh I wish it was yesterday

I wish it was yesterday

Refusing To Fall

I clung to your side so nervously

Hiding with my new friend

I didn't know just what to do

And so I followed you to the golden end

Through days and night and laughter bright

We shared our time at peace

But now that everything has come and gone

We say goodbye as we burn this thing 

And now I'm back with a golden smile

And you're doing your thing for the first time in a while

I say hello and you respond with a hi

It's the first time in years and I'm back at your side

I'm different now, older, mature

I can take care of myself and don't need you anymore

You're still the same, deep down, at least

Your appearance has changed but you're no Golden Fleece

I'm the leader now, in charge of it all

And when end comes to end, I will refuse to fall

The Plotting Process

This is a picture of the plotting process. Credit goes to some lovely friends: Sarah, Sarah Michael, Sarah, Allison, Beth, and soon to be Penny. 

Too Much To Hope For (Jill)

They don't realize that I know I'm insane. I know just how messed up I am. I know that I'm ruining lives. Why do you think I left in the first place? Anyways, it's not like my plan actually worked. Here I am, alive, and most definitely not well. 

I don't tell people, even Kris, about the nightmares. I don't tell them about Mom, about what we did to each other. I don't tell them about how that tough, creepy, evil me is all an act. It wasn't at first, but now that I'm back it is. My hope is that if I succeed this time, maybe I'll die, and maybe I'll stay dead. This world doesn't deserve me, or the pain I always bring. 

If I hate anyone, it's myself, my father, and my mother. No one even knows about what I did to Mom. 1 doesn't even know, and he knows everything. Or almost. He's forgotten most of what he knows, but he has my old diary. He can piece two and two together. 

Maybe I should try again. I have my knives. 

I know that I deserve every truth they tell me, and so much more, but that only makes it hurt more. I lie about so much. Music doesn't fix anything anymore, and I've lost my interest in books. This really is my last resort. I'm going through the motions. 

I have a plan. I'll hurt 2. More of a scare than anything, but it'll be enough to seriously mess with 1. It will hopefully put enough space between him and 3 that I'll be able to die, and maybe stay dead. 

Is that honestly too much to hope for dad, is it?

Come Along, Pond

"Come along, Pond!"

the silly man said

there was a bow 'round his neck

and a fez on his head!

But with big tears in her eyes

the Pond walked away

There was no room for travel

or running today

The silly man stayed quiet

and walked back to his box

with tears in his eyes

he was off like a fox

The silly man wasn't silly

without his Ponds to play

and with his friends gone

it was time to stay away

We All Fall Down

The silence kills in the dead of night

A pitter, a pat, and you say your goodbyes

The strings always strangle in the gloaming light

They hold you too tight in the civil twilight

The heartache kills on the mornings bright

The chirping birds, they kill the night

Death's cycle and scythe spin round and round

Hitting all, until we all fall down

End Up This Way (Lyrics)

I never thought we'd end up this way

But then again no one ever does

I always thought that we'd be together forever

But nononononoh

Things just had to go and change on us

Things couldn't just stay the same

Maybe it was supposed to end up this way

But I don't like it anymore than you

I knew we were growing up together

But you grew up without me

No more pretending we were young

And happy as can be

Things just had to go and change on us

Things couldn't just stay the same

Maybe it was supposed to end up this way

But I don't like it anymore than you

I know you'll always blame me for this

But you really didn't know how I felt

You really didn't know what I wanted to do

Until it happened to you

Things just had to go and change on us

Things couldn't just stay the same

Maybe it was supposed to end up this way

But I don't like it anymore than you

Someday I want to throw you off a cliff then catch you

Kill you then bring you back

How can we be best friends when I feel this way

No matter what we always use to say?

Things just had to go and change on us

Things couldn't just stay the same

Maybe it was supposed to end up this way

But I don't like it anymore than you

So this is one last final goodbye

A salute to the past we commemorate

An ending no one wanted or thought would come

An ending so real you can't believe it's true

Things just had to go and change on us

Things couldn't just stay the same

Maybe it was supposed to end up this way

But I don't like it anymore than you