30 Things

It's official. Whatever it is, I am unsure, but it is certainly official. I guess it's a list of things, so here they are.

1. I don't feel at home
2. I'm glad to be out of schooling (for now)
3. I might not want to go into university
4. I miss the carnival
5. I want to be confident enough to not be afraid to show off a bit
6. I miss constantly being on the move
7. I feel like Alice and this place is Wonderland, even if I have been here for years
8. I miss my personal library that I gave up when I left
9. I want to meet my dad, wherever he is out there
10. I hope I'm making my father proud
11. I like Anderson
12. I want to change find who I am
13. I want to stick with who I am
14. I feel like I'm maybe just a pretty face
15. I like unicorns and badgers best
16. I want to find my knight in shining armor, just so I know I'm not alone in this stupid world
17. I miss my mom
18. I miss being close to my mom
19. I hate peanuts
20. I know my other side is just waiting to pop out at the worst moment
21. I may want to cut my hair?
22. I want to know what Quinton Payne saw in me years ago (well only two...)
23. I want to be comfortable with whoever I am in life like people always assume
24. I want to find that one person who I can trust with my life and trust them with it
25. I want some good solid consistency to lean back on, like a relationship
26. Some days death sounds like the better option
27. Maybe constant change isn't what I really love
28. I want to develop more friendships and feel at home and accepted here
29. I want a home that I can always rely on
30.  Want to know why I am like this and if I can ever maybe change it

Seen scribbled at the bottom are some lines from '10 Things I Hate About You' from the movie of the same title. 

The thing I hate most

is I can't hate you

No, not even a little

No, not even at all